march 5, 2011

y my life has become like that??
becoming more rude thn before...

y r u still alive??
can go to hell faster ar??
seeing your face makes me feel like wanna kill myself..
feel like moving out..
feel like ending my life...
make everything simple..

this things always happen when mom's nt around..
i wish she could see your fucking face n attitude..
i hate this feeling..
i hate locking myself in this room..
facing the walls's and my laptop..
crying and telling myself to stay strong..
i wish i could jz hang around with my frenz now...
i wish i hv someone to be with me now..
someone that i can share my feeling's with...

GOD.. what hav i did till you wan to play this game on me??

The MACCe Camp...

The MACCe camp was held on the 11/2/2011 - 13/2/2011.
It was a superb fantastic awesome camp i every had.
I was glad that i make it on the 2nd day to the camp..
actually tot of coming bek on the day itself..
but in the end decided to stay there a day, n come bek the next day early morning..

the people there were so nice..
met alot of new people..
made new frenz...
playing in the beach with the bunch of awesome people was so fun..
i miss the game we played "ZIP ZAP BOINK"..
wahkakaka... cant stop laughing.. super fun..

on the second day nite..
was the last night there..
so a number of us was like..
lets stay up late and drink.. chat..
hmm
guess wat.. we slept at 6am..
and im suppose to drive bek to KL at 8am...
we drank like almost 20 bottle's of beer that night..

before the beer session..
went out with Jia Liang to the 7-11..
we didn't know where was it..
so Jia used his GPS to get there..
wahkakaka...
damn funny that the GPS brought us all the way to Lukut..
both of us who do not know where is that place..
was like freaked out in the car.. hahaha
cant stop laughing..
but he was so nice to bring me all the way there to get my toothbrush and also 2 packet of Dunhill..

overall..
the camp was really fun..
those who did not turn up.. sure have missed this awesome time to get to know awesome people...

*im gonna collapse anytime.. since yesterday (12/2) 6.30 am till now.. i have only slept for 2 hours..*

thanks for the wonderful camp guys.. love u all <3

Results out day !

Results out today..
and it wasn't what i wanted..
mood nt good..

today happen lots of stuff..
lots of weird feelings..
maybe its an misunderstanding...

met up the tutor..
get some flyers from him..
can start job..
hope got students who wants tuition...
then i can earn to go HK..
but before that need to pay up all the debts..
banging my head on the wall to find the cash..
i shouldn't have agreed to go to HK..
then i can save for my laptop...

=(

A Bad Dream..

went to took my nap as usual..
but today..
it end up with a bad dream..
i was awaken by the scariness..

i dream that my girls we no longer my frenz..
the accuse me of saying something i din say..
i end up alone..
my parents were no longer supporting me..
no one beside me d..

omg...
what dream is this??
i got a very bad feeling that i have been dreaming this same dream for few times..

*cross my fingers*
hope it doesn't happen...