what happened??

today end up crying when i brought my mom to The Mines..
it feels like there is alot of things that i keep inside me..
suddenly feel wanna let go..
just with tears..
silly me..

do not know what to write for today..
today keep listening to the song in my blog..
which suits my mood...

feelings.. cant be avoided..

seeing people around me all in a relationship..
suddenly make me feel that i am old..
looking back at the pictures..
make me look so different from the past..

thinking back what you have said..
make me feel that you are a fucking liar...
viewing you profile..
make me feel that you are happy with what you have now..

thinking back..
we used to talk everyday..
even stuffs that is not important..
make me feel sad..
i feel that you are no longer who you are..
no news from you..
not even a text message saying "Hi"..
make me feel down.. very down...

no matter what i feel..
no matter where am i..
who am i with..
even if i am alone..
or with my girls...

i will stand up strong..
n say to myself..
that I AM NOT ALONE...
i will be happy..
no matter what happen's.
live my life with full of happiness.. *yay!!*

Christmas Eve

its christmas eve...
and i'm at home..
doing nothing...
was having christmas mood while the exam week's...
and now..
its jz a lonely christmas..


i do not know why do i feel emo...
i had a feeling that people are changing....
maybe its my fault which make them to do so..
but i surely miss the time when we use to talk everyday.. =(
i so wanna know what really happened that made you changed... 

Bored Day..

i have finished 2 drama's.....
yay!!

the first drama is :












No Regrets
this drama is superb..
it talks about the days when Guangzhou falls into the hands of the Japanese..
its really sad to see those innocent people die in the hands on the Japanese..
nice drama..
people out there should watch this..

the second drama is :


this was the second drama that i have finished..
its called as Gun Metal Grey...
not bad not bad..
talk bout a police who end's up killing people.

while im waiting for Jia Liang to pass me the Glee
im gonna watch this..


wahkakaka.. my holiday...
is fully occupied by the tvb drama's...
thanks to PPS... =)

Its Holiday!!

i just finish my second semester's exam..
woohoo..
holiday~~ celebrate...

this time our sem break is only 1 month..
in the month of December..
here comes Christmas..
sad..
cant go Singapore with my gang..
due to :

1) on the 25th there is a wedding dinner to attend.. (IMPORTANT)
2) mom do not allow
3) no money liaoooo.... $$$

now trying to find job to do..
but seems very hard to find job..
mom kind of controlling more after i broke up..
go out anywhere also she will ask 1 - 100 types of questions..
sometimes..
i even find out that they tend to lie so that i can go back home earlier..
kind of disappointed with her..

thinking..
what should i do for this semester break..
every monday got MACCe meeting at HELP
then..
i got nothing to do d..
any job??

i told mom..
i need a job.. she said..
dun need work till late..
morning job will do...
which i feel so angry..
cz.. for a part timer..
there is no only morning job..
sometimes i keep asking my self..
y cant she be more understanding..
i know the world outside is nt secure..
but the more she control..
the more i feel like running away from this house..

anyway.. its Holiday...
i might go over to JB and hang around.. (if i could skip meeting's)
wahkakkaa...

My 22nd Birthday =)

First of all i want to thank Maple Lee, Berry Yeap and KY Tha..
for being there on my wonderful birthday


Day 1 :The Day Before My Birthday 28/11/2010 


morning woke up at 7am...
excited cz get to go for hiking..
not only with my mom..
but also the girls.. Ky Tha, Maple Lee and Berry Yeap..
yay!!
thanks to Steward Gor Gor who brought us all the way up..
and also lead us down safely.. 
*more details & pictures will be uploaded in the next post of mine *


at night 7pm,
me and my mom went to Sg. Wang to see Kien Ying sing for her singing competition..
and yay!! 
she is in the final's... 
Congrats to KY Tha... *clap clap clap*











then we went to Green Apple @ Aman Puri for the next event that Ky suppose to go..
had lots of fun seeing those singers performing on the stage..
rain was so heavy..
KY's camera cover gone missing.. =(
v ordered food which we cant even finish it..
lets take a look at the table 

then the clock strike's 12..
tada..
my lovely cake.. made by fries..
hehe.. specially designed by ky tha =)

















then followed by pictures, pictures and pictures !!

then is my precious mom's kiss =)

here come's the excited part..
present =) 
hehehe.. was asked to guess what's inside.
but unfortunately..
i was abit stupid..
so i gave up..
and decided to open the box...
TADA.. this is what inside =)

a wonderful jacket.. which belong's to Maple Lee.
see whats in the box.. haha...
the lovely, sweet Burberry Perfume.. 
yay! i'm lovin it =)

ITS BURBERRY BRIT SHEER
               eau de toilette





Darling Jia called at 12am n wished me Happy Birthday for several times..
Thanks to Darling Jia =)
Day end like that.. cz im having class the next day..






Day 2 : The actual day of my Birthday 29/11/2010


woke up by a wonderful call from Joshua Yap..
asking if there is class at 10am...
there goes my wonderful sleep..
woke up and get ready for class..
then i felt the muscle pain.. 
due to the hiking that i went the day before..
on this day,
din tot that there is another surprise from the girls..


entered the class like normal..
they were late.. 
class starts like how it suppose to be..
bla bla bla..
then the class ends..
was talking to Jia, Gadiy, Kevan n frenz..
Maple Lee said that she is in a rush to go home..
so i said bye..

suddenly..
TADA.. here comes the birthday cake.. 
(i ran like a mouse and hide behind the wall) 
which is so memalukan.. 

































thanks to them..

    

who celebrated my birthday at HELP University College =)

then we went to Mid Valley (TonyRoma's) for our lunch =)

Thanks Ky Tha for the wonderful lunch =)

Thanks Dennis for the recommendation =)

Delicious food =)

The wonderful dessert and also the birthday card...

and here comes another exciting part..

TADA

the second present from the girls...

the wonderful purse that i wanted from Charles & Keith

since the day i worked at Charles & Keith =)

bought by my dearest babe Maple Lee..
i love it dear.. seriously love it..
*hugs*

this is what my wonderful mom gave me...

she let me see the photo shoot session for the Renoma box model picture..

wow..

the model was superb..

i fall in love with his eyes..

too bad.. he is younger than me..

if not i would have taken picture's with him..

haha....

*To my dearest friends, thanks for being there today.. on this special day.. it was kind of different where i have to accept the fact that i am single and there is no more celebrating with a bf.. but having u guys are the most awesome thing i have in my life.. without u guys.. i dunno what am i gonna be or look like today.. thanks for supporting me all this while.. thanks for everything that u guys did on my birthday.. i love it <3 *hugs* muacks muacks*

What a Day~

case 1 :
i today,
made a very bad choice and decision..
that made me felt a little down on the result..


i should have known that this will happen..
but..
i still wanna do it..
emo emo n emo..
giv up?? or jz continue with what i am doing?
ish ish ish..
hard decision to make..


there is a good news..
and also a bad news..
which i dunno i should b happy or sad..


case 2:
PR Audit coursework marks are out..
FML..
my marks are so damn low..
hate myself for nt doing it well..
i did not put much effort in this semester to get good marks..
i totally fail in this semester..
can i maintain the CGPA??
is it a down day today?

What Should I Do?

sitting here in front of the laptop..
makes me see lots of unwanted things..
should i give up n not hopping that things will just be back like how it used to be?
realizing that you have friends by your side..
keep saying "her" name.. 
i felt different..
i tried asking you directly.. but u said "no"..
should i believe on what you said?
or should i just stick to what i feel?


i feel complicated now..
suddenly tears just flow out from my eyes..
heart feel like gonna die soon..
should i think of something else?
i have something on my mind..
someone keep telling me..
"if i dun try, i wont know the results"
but i dun dare to move forward..
maybe i'm scared to be hurt..
maybe i still cant really let go of the past..
what should i do?


i feel myself being not as strong as i were before..
i might look happy all the while..
but each time i face myself in my cold room...
i tend to fall apart.. 
i become someone that i myself do not know..
what should i do?

Hair Cut Day at Tony & Guy~

Morning class was at 10am..
reach uni at 10am..
F**K.. cant find parking..
keep round round round..
still no parking..
those car that double side park was full till the back..
then.. called Gadiy Lim..
ask him for directions to the free parking space that he talked about the other day..
then.. i decided to round once more..
and if reli no parking only.. go and park outside..
mana tau..
lucky me.. a car came out..
tada.. i got parking d..... yay!!!
waited for KY to park her car.. then went to KPD..
reach there at 11am.. so din enter class..
straight went for breakfast..

as usual after that will go for classes.. bla bla bla..
then come Dennis...
asking "i need 3 girls to go for hair cut.."
haha..
v went... told 4.30pm will reach Tony & Guys at Bukit Bintang..
but by 3.30pm they have been calling and asking..
"where are u? what time will reach? how long more?"

entered Tony & Guy...
wahkaka..
scary... sit on the chair..
listen to the hair stylist while he was talking / commenting bout my wonderful hair..
then he told me how he gonna cut...
"shoulder length".. i was like? omg.. that short?? then i cant do curl d lorrr....
sad...
there goes the process of washing, cutting, blowing, asking.. bla bla bla..

tada.. this is the result..

Lets see before and after :

Before : 

After :

Another nervous day~

today..
its Uonline TeenFest 2010 Top 30 competition..
and my buddy..
Ky Tha is taking part in it..
heart beat *dup dup dup dup*

morning woke up at 12pm..
get prepared..
and push off to Sg.Wang..
beloved mum followed..
haha..
she wants to support KY... yay!!

suppose to reach at 1.30pm but end up reaching at 2pm..
parking was so hard to find..
but lucky me..
finally get a parking which is near to the staircase..
^_^..

meet up KY and Berry at the computer shop.. then..
went Pontian station to eat Wantan Mee with the girls..
yum yum..
nt enough spicy...
but delicious.. ^_^

then straight we went to the center court to find nice place to stand..
hehe.. right in front the stage..
nice angle to take pictures..
then come WC.. to support..
KY and Maple Lee went and rehearse..
coz.. she din prepare for this competition..

the competition started at 3pm sharp..
and KY was the number 15 contestant..


nice~~~

then comes the results time..
*dang dang dang dang*

yay!!
she get into the top 15...


we.. the supporter's...



my mom.. also the supporter..




One of the Top 15 contestant~





Us together

THA KIEN YING... WE SUPPORT U ALL THE WAY...

LOVE YA~ HUGSSSSS~~~

im suddenly so into this song =)

Wo Bu Nan Guo

you zhan zai ni jia de men kou wo men zhong fu chen mo zhe yang zi dan fang mian de shou hou hai neng duo jiu zhong yu ni kai kou xiang wo su shuo ta you duo wen rou sui ran ni hai wo zhe wo de shou dan wo yi bu zai ni xin zhong wo zhen de dong ni bu shi xi xin yan jiu shi wo mei you pei zai ni shen bian dang ni ji mo shi hou bie zai kan zhe wo shuo zhe ni ai guo bie tai shang tong wo bu nan guo zhe bu suan shen me zhi shi wei shen me yan lei hui liu wo ye bu dong jiu rang wo zou rang wo kai shi xiang shou zi you hui yi hen duo ni de ying zi ye hui chong man wo sheng huo wo bing bu nuo ruo ni bi shui dou dong sui ran ji mo zhe hui shi wo zui hou de kuan rong zhong yu ni kai kou xiang wo su shuo ta you duo wen rou sui ran ni hai wo zhe wo de shou dan wo yi bu zai ni xin zhong wo zhen de dong ni bu shi xi xin yan jiu shi wo mei you pei zai ni shen bian dang ni ji mo shi hou bie zai kan zhe wo shuo zhe ni ai guo bie tai shang tong wo bu nan guo zhe bu suan shen me zhi shi wei shen me yan lei hui liu wo ye bu dong jiu rang wo zou rang wo kai shi xiang shou zi you hui yi hen duo ni de ying zi ye hui chong man wo sheng huo wo bing bu nuo ruo ni bi shui dou dong sui ran ji mo zhe hui shi wo zui hou de kuan rong bao jin wo zai bao jin wo zhe yi fen gan dong qing ni rang wo liu zai xiong kou bie zai shuo shi ni de cuo ai dao le jin tou shi fei dui cuo jiu rang ta sui feng wang le suo you guo de bi ni kuai huo wo zhen de dong ni bu shi xi xin yan jiu shi wo mei you pei zai ni shen bian dang ni ji mo shi hou bie zai kan zhe wo shuo zhe ni ai guo bie tai shang tong wo bu nan guo zhe bu suan shen me zhi shi wei shen me yan lei hui liu wo ye bu dong bu yao zai shuo huo xu zhe shi zui hao de jie guo xian zai fen shou zong hao guo ni bu ai wo yi tuo zai tuo song kai ni de shou li kai ni zuo you ni xiang qian zou zhe hui shi wo zhen zheng de jie tuo

just a dream~

it was sweet to dream of u..
both of us.. 
together.. happily together..
but it is just a dream..
it wont happen..
should i give up?
i keep telling myself that 
"All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them."
but each time i look back at the profile..
i was like.. hmm..
should i??


someone told me..
if i don't try.. i wont know the outcome..
maybe things will get better..
maybe there is a start of something new in my life..
but.. how also..
its just a maybe..


"When we are dreaming alone it is only a dream. When we are dreaming with others, it is the beginning of reality."


do you have the same dream??
a hug from you is just what i needed now..
hope i can keep dream the same dream every night~ =)

Weird Feeling

i don't know if i am changing or things are changing..
everything seems to be different..
oh yay..
made new fren..
banyak bising punya fren..
he cheer me up.. told me to stay strong.. n look forward..

anyway..
i still need to move on..
there are so many task to be done..
to be accomplished..


task need to be done :
1) make more friends.. LOL..
2) live with happiness every moment
3) accompany my beloved mom more
4) stop SPENDING like a Billionaire..
5) Work Work Work!!!

no topic~~ its jz me..

i got no one to talk to..
i suddenly thought back of us..
each time u use to call me at night..
talk on the phone till i fall asleep..
u used to scold and nag..
each time i sleep late..

there is morning wake up call..
each time i have early morning classes..
evening wake up call..
each time i have my super wonderful nap..

each time u come over to my house..
play with our dog~~
each time i put my head on ur shoulder..
it feels like i'm so lucky..

the time that we hold hands walking around..
u gave me warmth in the cinema..
the way u gave me chances we played pool..
the smile you always show me..
kept playing every night in my head..

i look strong everyday...
i look fine in the day...
but when it comes to night..
all went upside down..
when i face the walls in my room..
i felt lonely..

*only time can cure*

Its Ying's 20th Birthday~

Saturday's task is to get Ying's present (The Wardrobe) =P

went to Carrefour at Kepong to get the wardrobe..

there only left 1 display and 1 new stock left..

then we thought of going to Tesco to have a look..

i forgotten about Tesco and end up in Jusco..

didn't have much choice there..

so we end up going to Tesco...

reached Tesco..

got 1 children wardrobe which is nice.

but only got 2 doors..

then think think again..

we went back to Carrefour to get the cupboard..

1 present done.. *yeah*

next.. is to go and get Ying's second present...

on the same day..

which is Saturday..

we took the star lrt and the monorail to Bukit Bintang..

we went to Lot 10.. 

then to Fahrenheit 88..

then to Pavilion..

entered Esprit..

but no nice belt..

entered Levi's..

got 1..

but the price not worth it  for the brand..

end up eating at the food court..

then we went back to Lot 10..

then to Sg. Wang..

and then to Times Square..

went and took a look at the guitar bag...

but didn't like it..

 1 day GONE!!

Monday is a Busy day

Monday.. went to class in the morning..

planned with the girls to do the cake at night..

so after class..

went with Fung to the shop near her house to get the bakery stuffs..

SCRATCHED my car ... SHIT!!

then went to Fung's house thought that we will do the cake there..

end up..

doing nothing..

then 7 something at night..

we went to 1Utama to get the belt from Armani Exchange~~

with the help of Carmen..

we bought the belt.. 

which is the second present for Ying..

Then we head back to my house..

start doing the cake after my family finish their dinner..

woohoo...

the cake.. after being steam..

so so so look like a shit..

haha.. 

damn ugly..

looks more disgusting after putting the cream on~~

hahahahaha...

so omg..

first time doing this shit..

for a person..

on her birthday...

v did it until 3am only finished..

hahahahhaha...

the next day.. which is on Tuesday!!

did get to wake up in the morning..
so we did not get to go for the class..
haha...
went straight to Ying's house.
the wardrobe only will arrive at 12pm..
and it is only 10am in the morning..
so we made noise..
ask to go for breakfast..
while we are having breakfast..
the lorry driver called and said that he is on the way
so....
we went back and waited.. without her knowing anything..
and here comes the lorry..
woohoo..
this is the cupboard..

we finished the cupboard around 5pm..
then..
its dinner time..
we went to Yi Pai Zi Ran
to eat our dinner..
hehe

next destination is ~~~~~ a GERMAN BAR by the name of.....

Deutsches Gasthaus...


yeah...
i ordered Margarita... yum yum..
then we played the card..
doctor and killer...
hehe..
like budak-budak...
but it was fun~~
then..
here comes the cake~~

woohoo...
once again HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Ying Ying..

A Day Out @ 1U

today received a call from Berry Yeap saying..

"u still sleeping? Ying say wan go 1U wor..wan go out? go watch movie.."

i straight be awake..

say.. okay.. tell me what time..

then another call from KY Tha..

saying...

eh... watch movie at 1 sumthing or 2 oh.. ok mah??

watch "Life as we know it"..

i was like.. okay.. let me check if i have car...

called mom..

informed..

she said OKAY.. be back early..

hehe..

rush rush.. bath n get prepared..

movie at 2pm..

it was already 1pm whn i get ready..

drove like a mad driver to Berry's house..

reached at 1.30pm.. with the amount of cars on the road..

nt bad.. i can enter F1 d.. haha..

then went and pick up Wei Wei from her house..

KY Tha drove lagi more like a mad driver..

reli mad..

she go on bumper without stepping on the break..

WTH..

feel like vomiting..

cant even sit properly..

just because Berry said.. "i who also dun wan".. haha..

gila punya Ying.. haha..

after picked up Wei Wei..

we head to 1U..

10 mins to 1U..

nt bad..

haha..

went and took the ticket..

thn we entered the cinema..

to watch ..........

the movie was so damn funny..

nice to watch..

next..

we went to BBQ Plaza..

wow..

a place tht v din entered for a long long time..

makan makan makan..

delicious..

yum yum..

delicious BBQ Plaza...

its a wonderful day out with the girls.. =)