what happened??

today end up crying when i brought my mom to The Mines..
it feels like there is alot of things that i keep inside me..
suddenly feel wanna let go..
just with tears..
silly me..

do not know what to write for today..
today keep listening to the song in my blog..
which suits my mood...

feelings.. cant be avoided..

seeing people around me all in a relationship..
suddenly make me feel that i am old..
looking back at the pictures..
make me look so different from the past..

thinking back what you have said..
make me feel that you are a fucking liar...
viewing you profile..
make me feel that you are happy with what you have now..

thinking back..
we used to talk everyday..
even stuffs that is not important..
make me feel sad..
i feel that you are no longer who you are..
no news from you..
not even a text message saying "Hi"..
make me feel down.. very down...

no matter what i feel..
no matter where am i..
who am i with..
even if i am alone..
or with my girls...

i will stand up strong..
n say to myself..
that I AM NOT ALONE...
i will be happy..
no matter what happen's.
live my life with full of happiness.. *yay!!*

Christmas Eve

its christmas eve...
and i'm at home..
doing nothing...
was having christmas mood while the exam week's...
and now..
its jz a lonely christmas..


i do not know why do i feel emo...
i had a feeling that people are changing....
maybe its my fault which make them to do so..
but i surely miss the time when we use to talk everyday.. =(
i so wanna know what really happened that made you changed... 

Bored Day..

i have finished 2 drama's.....
yay!!

the first drama is :












No Regrets
this drama is superb..
it talks about the days when Guangzhou falls into the hands of the Japanese..
its really sad to see those innocent people die in the hands on the Japanese..
nice drama..
people out there should watch this..

the second drama is :


this was the second drama that i have finished..
its called as Gun Metal Grey...
not bad not bad..
talk bout a police who end's up killing people.

while im waiting for Jia Liang to pass me the Glee
im gonna watch this..


wahkakaka.. my holiday...
is fully occupied by the tvb drama's...
thanks to PPS... =)

Its Holiday!!

i just finish my second semester's exam..
woohoo..
holiday~~ celebrate...

this time our sem break is only 1 month..
in the month of December..
here comes Christmas..
sad..
cant go Singapore with my gang..
due to :

1) on the 25th there is a wedding dinner to attend.. (IMPORTANT)
2) mom do not allow
3) no money liaoooo.... $$$

now trying to find job to do..
but seems very hard to find job..
mom kind of controlling more after i broke up..
go out anywhere also she will ask 1 - 100 types of questions..
sometimes..
i even find out that they tend to lie so that i can go back home earlier..
kind of disappointed with her..

thinking..
what should i do for this semester break..
every monday got MACCe meeting at HELP
then..
i got nothing to do d..
any job??

i told mom..
i need a job.. she said..
dun need work till late..
morning job will do...
which i feel so angry..
cz.. for a part timer..
there is no only morning job..
sometimes i keep asking my self..
y cant she be more understanding..
i know the world outside is nt secure..
but the more she control..
the more i feel like running away from this house..

anyway.. its Holiday...
i might go over to JB and hang around.. (if i could skip meeting's)
wahkakkaa...