tsunami is coming~~

its already the 5th week..
class started 5 weeks already..
and im nt even aware of what the lecturer's are teaching.
useless me..

the assignments are like the tsunami..
coming.. in a big wave..
wow..
scary..
ROPE again?? ahh..
fan sei..

two 3rd year paper this semester..
now feeling abit scared d..
scare cant pass this semester...

shit.. its already thursday.. wednesday midnight..
tml.. tml.. tml..
scared~~
results are out..
dream of me getting good results last night..
but dunno how true is it..
haiz..
hope..
i pass this time..
then my PTPTN load can gao dim easily..
haiz..

this few days also like nt enuf sleep..
keep feel wanna sleep even in class..
almost everyday raining..
mood also feel one kind..
bed is my life..
wahkakaka..

have to start rushing my data entry job..
need to submit in 1 month time..
2 big boxes to do..
around 14 files to enter..
die lor...

everything is going away~

today de feeling is just like the world is going to end..
i dunno what should i do..
everything i have..
slowly one by one..
like going away from me...
我有那么糟糕吗？


i had fun on the night of firday...
but din know...
will make things so bad..
damn..
things should not happen..
or i have just turn bad...
maybe i do not deserve to have such friends..
such friends who really cared alot for me..


last night was a night that i really feel like ending my life..
i know every people has different kind of attitude and character..
blaming my mom for calling my friend was the stupidest thing that i do..
maybe..
things should not be like that..
maybe..
without me..
things will be better..
maybe..
getting far from things..
everything will b how it supposed to be..


haiz..
cant even think of a damn solution..
whole night thinking..
also cant think of the damn solution..


"Camy ar Camy.. stand up strong.. u can do it alone.. nothing will go wrong.. no more crying.. no more thinking negative.. be who you want to be, who you suppose to be!!"


to them : im really sorry to make u guys disappointed on me.. maybe things will get better without me.. or maybe i have turn from good to bad.. anyway.. i did not do in on purpose.. i really did not hold the hp.. if i did.. i would answer the call.. i was drunk on that night.. 

no topic~~ haha~~

today..
class at 8am again..
itu ms ajinder..
ask us write an email to her..
haiz..
damn sienzz..
go for her class early in the morning..
she came in late. then ...
ask us write email n send to her..
=.=..
dunno wat face to show her..

then go to STL de house with Fung..
to pass her boxer to her..
her face..
damn funny..
her soul still on her bed..

then go to Kar Kar de house..
yummy..
makan Vegetarian de Nasi lemak..
2 packet..
wow..
damn full..
hehe..
thanks to Ying..
for introducing this food to me~~
one day..
i think i am gonna change bek to vegetarian..
haha..... ying sure happy..
hahahahaha...

then went to doubletree hotel..
new hotel which is located near to Ampang Park..
beside of Ampang Plaza...
waited for the Ms Serene to come.
she was late..
v parked at level G..
then went down the staircase..
then take the lift to lobby..
mana tau.. its staff entrance..
hahaha..
the staff look at us very weird..

today..
get to know few new friends..
1 from UTAR...
3 from KTAR...
my ex college..
hehehhee.. 1 stay near my house..
2 stay near Ying house..
hehehehe...
so ngam...
hahahah..

today de event at that hotel is Maxis de event..
new experience...
did Digi roadshow b4..
this time is a close event for dealers only..
hehe..
abit bored.. and not that well planned..
but..
ok lar..
^^...

damn tired.. assignments are next on my list..
need do it ASAP d..
then can keep working..
earn $$..
next year can go HK d..
hmm..

busy and fun day~~

finally had the chance to watch the movie that i wanted to watch from the day its being played on cinema..
woohoo..
superb movie..

felt like dancing in the cinema together with them..

then v went shopping to get some banana's..
straight head to Pei Fung's house to start with our chocolate dip..
yummy..
damn delicious..
but..
unfortunately.. we left out the strawberry..
sad sad..

went back to grandma house..
get prepared for the next party..
waited for Berry Yeap and Mr Kok to come and pick me up..
head to Titiwangsa for :

BIRHTDAY~~~

reached there too early.. 

so waited in the car awhile..

when we went in.. 

din know anyone.. 

except the Birthday girl~~

started eating.. then one by one of Berry's friend arrived..

delicious satay.. din take pic.. wahakakkaa..

anyway~~

Danielle stl : Happy Birthday once again.. May all ur wishes come true...

Berry : i wan another choc dip.. cz we left out the strawberries.. hahahahahaha...

one sad day..

thinking bek all the things that happened..
looked back at our album..
tears falling non-stop..
when can this pain jz stop??
when can this broken heart can be back to how it supposed to be??
when can this scar heal ??

everyday viewing your page..
going through your pictures..
just make me mad..
i dont even know what am i now..
i gave everything...
everything to u..
and now..
i am just like an empty bottle..
left away..
being dump far far away..

y human must go through this kind of feeling??
y i must be one of them??
y can i be strong enough to face the damn fact??
y am i so useless??

as night comes..
as i go on my bed..
and close my eyes..
there you'll be..
keep popping out in my mind..
sufferrrrrr... sufferrrrr....
how happy is it, if tomorrow is the end of the day..

A busy day~~

this morning arrived at Kl from Muar at 3 sumthing in the morning..
din reli slept in the car the whole journey..
due to the way the old man drive..
my god..
it was raining so so so heavy..
mana tau..
he still drive 120 - 140..
like wan kill the whole passenger in the car..
useless betul~~

then .. woke up at 7 am..
just to go to HELP Uni..
to gao dim the KWSP thing to pay my fees..
then..
reached uni at 8.30am..
raining so badly..
then...
go in find ms sharon..
mana tau..
the office only opens at 9.30..
wow...
too early..
go makan mcd with mom...
hmm..
long time din eat the mcd breakfast d..

then... go KWSP to do the process of withdrawal after getting the letter.
mana tau..
document not lengkap..
wahlao..
need skip class and then go bek home to get the document..
so damn mafan..
until 1pm only gao dim~~
haiz...

then go class at 2pm..
then went bek to main block to submit the KWSP letter to extend the due date for payment..
that also took around 30 minutes..
so so so stupid punya office ppl..
bad time management..
also service..

then we straight go to taman miharja to eat Vegetaraian food..
delicious cake..
banana dunno wat..
yum yum..
delicious..
n now..
im bek home.. watching...
公主嫁到

Raya at Muar~~

came bek to my hometown on the first day of raya.
and it was at 4am in the morning.
we pushed off from KL to Johor..
arrived and saw my cousin and aunty from JB were here with the baby..
did not feel so bored at least..
played with the baby and became a baby sitter for 2 days..

on the first day of raya..
went to my uncle's house..
makan makan...
there is whr the ketupat, rendang,briyani n etc are being eaten..
hahahaha.. sounds like a monster...
fun fun fun...
ate and chat around till 4 sumthing.
then bek sendiri punya rumah..
slept till 7-8pm at night..
plan to go buy Absolut Vodka and also lime juice to party at night..
but need to be silent..

then..
the following day.. which was the second day of raya..
my cousins went back d..
so it was only me with my iphone and also the tv..
bored bored bored..
only the otak otak make me feel satisfied..
the silent, hot and boring day made me think back of the past..
arrrrrggghhhh...
so decided to sleep..
i can say that..
the whole day..
is a sleeping day...
ate my lunch at 5pm..
and went back to bed..
woke up at 12am..
watched tv till 1am.. and go bek to bed..

this morning.. woke up..
took a cold bath.. and
here i am..
blogging and also facebooking..
bored!!!!
i miss my sopo's...
how nice if u guys were here..
im sure we will be chilling out..
steamboat and BBQ-ing around the night..

Morning class

Went to HELP Uni just for one stupid lecture.
Which is in the morning.
8am in the morning.
Owhhh.
Its like taking my life.
With the cold weather in the morning.
Which feels like winter as said by Weng Chuan.
Reli dun feel like waking up lor.
Mana tau.
Still have to wake up for the class.

Enter the class.
Hear Berry Yeap's nightmare story
Finish listening d
The lecture also haven reach

Mana tau.
Get a call from Cindy.
Saying they are at wisma help.level 6 with the lecturer.
Apa la.
Sendiri also dunno where is her class
Tot will end b4 2 hours de.
Mana tau.
When go pay parking. Cost me 6.50.
Ahh.
Money gone.

Thn after class went to my grandma house.
Need to pray my grandpa.
It's his death day.
Then went find Berry Yeap.

Reach her house. Saw her and KY Tha sleeping.
Then went to Genting Klang to eat vegetarian.
Mana tau. Belum ready.
So din eat. Only ate abit of Berry's mee.
Then went to Sri Rampai to c the wearhouse sale.
Haha. Had a shock when we reach.
Cz it's nt like what we aspected. Haha

Next destination.
Straight to Hartamas to eat vegetarian
And also get my onigiri.
The triangle. Hahahaha.
Ate fired mushroom rice. Delicious
But abit salty.
Then bought 5 onigiri and also 1 sambal bread.
Which is vegetarian.
Wahkakakkaka.
Reached home slept for 3 hours plus.
Now only have the time to blog.
Cz it's bedtime.
And I'm going to sleep d.

Monday classes at Help

first time enter the classes on monday at Help University College..
wow..
so so so bored..
mr kannan's class.. was not like what i thought of..
he let us watch a movie called "MIND YOUR LANGUAGE"..
errrmmm..
no comment..
met Rajvin again..
haiz..
scare of her d..
next class.. gonna run away as soon as the class end..

then .. we went for lunch..
abit of rice.. abit of 3 dishes..
cost me RM4...
my god..
so expensive..
vegetarian food summore..
hmm..

then go for the next class..
mr. ck..
dunno what to say..
talked about politics...
bla bla bla..
"fei hua" alot..
kind of young..
look like 20 ++ years only only..
haiz..
was nt even paying attention in the class..
haha.. keep whatapps with kevan lee chia loong..
when he is just sitting behind me..
that was how bored i was..

then went for ms khao de class..
hmm..
we learn about ROPE again..
haha..
sienz..
one word to describe..

today rain so so so heavy..
tired..
went to bazaar rahmadan with mom..
bought alot of food..
ate non-stop...
now blogging.. and off to bed soon..

Starting with a New Life~~

Its 5th September 2010.
I'm sitting in my room..
In front of my laptop..
thinking.. thinking.. and thinking..
It has been 2 weeks..
Since the unwanted day happened..
and now i have to move on my life..
just like how it supposed to be..

i realized..
not everything can be trusted..
not everyone i can be close with..
not everything can last forever..
now..
it has come to an end..
where i am always feeling cold..
facing the empty walls and ceilings..
every night..
teardrops on my pillow..
feeling scared..
feeling different..
thinking.. was it my fault??

smiling and chilling out with my friends everyday wasn't that hard..
but deep down inside..
i don't really feel good..
i might look strong and happy..
but the real situation and feeling..
only my dog knows..

i keep feeling that yesterday we just went out together..
but when i look back at the calendar..
time has passed very very fast..
missing you is just a task that i do and feel everyday..
wanting u back is what i really dream of..
but i know..
its only a dream..
a dream and wish that cant be achieved..

classes has begin..
hope to have a busy life soon..
where i can make myself as busy as i can..
and get tired without thinking at night..

p/s : i want to thank all my friends.. for being there cheering me up when im down.. without you guys.. i think i am ended up in a very bad situation.. thank you.. LOVE u guys.. *Berry Yeap, KY Tha, & MaplePlum*